Israel at 66: Letter to an Israeli citizen – Al Arabiya News.
A letter from Abdullah Hamidaddin, posted from Al Arabiya News
Israel at 66: Letter to an Israeli citizen – Al Arabiya News.
A letter from Abdullah Hamidaddin, posted from Al Arabiya News
For a long time, I resisted calls to free Jonathan Pollard. He was convicted of treason, spying against the United States of America. Although his punishment was more severe and although he spied on behalf of the State of Israel, an ally of the United States, his sentence seemed acceptable to me. He was a convicted spy serving a life sentence for betraying his country-that was okay in my book.
However, it is clear from the latest round of Middle East negotiations that Jonathan Pollard became little more than a political pawn, to be played in order to achieve a settlement. If our own government admits that Pollard’s punishment can be overlooked to achieve a political end, then the reason for his original punishment seems to have run its course, and he has paid the price. I do not believe a pardon is in order but it seems reasonable that we permit the time served be sufficient punishment for his treasonous acts.
Notwithstanding the collapse of the complicated formula that included his release to bring an agreement to the Middle East peace talks, Pollard appears to be merely taking up space in a prison as far as the US Government is concerned. So therefore, it seems appropriate to release and deport him to Israel. Pollard does not matter to the United States anymore as evidenced by our willingness to release him. Dangling Pollard in front of those who might believe he matters, only serves to distract the two directly affected parties from the important and hard decisions they need to make. So let us now take the only reasonable course of action, release Jonathan Pollard now.
Soon we will gather around the Seder table and recall our redemption from the suffering of slavery we endured in Egypt. We ask “Why is this night different from others?” This is a particularly profound question for us in this place and time.
We enjoy many blessings. We have prosperity and education; we can live our lives as we choose. We are free. But there are many who are not. What does our freedom mean when there are so many, Jew and non-Jew, who still suffer?
Our tradition teaches us that we are not truly free until all are free. The oppression of slavery comes in many forms including physical, spiritual, and economic. It comes from a sense of hopelessness, the despair that arises when people believe that things cannot get better, that there is only suffering. We are exhorted to help those in need and those who are oppressed to break the shackles that bind them.
We are not truly free until all are free. God’s promise to us is not fulfilled until we deliver on our part of the bargain using our blessings to help others. As we share our prayer “Next Year in Jerusalem,” let us commit to doing our part to help others also reach that profound and great place.
Leaders or anyone concerned with the welfare of others can find themselves confronting a challenging personal conflict. We saw this recently play out in parsha Shimini. Here, the story of Aaron is an extraordinary narrative illustrating the real tension in trying to navigate the waters between public and personal needs. In parsha Shimini, there was an imbalance between the two competing needs and the cost of doing one at the expense of the other was overwhelming.
Nadav and Abihu, Aaron’s sons are killed because they brought an offering of “alien fire” before God. But instead of grieving as any father would, Aaron is admonished not to acknowledge this tragedy in any way. He is to attend to his sacred duties. The needs of the Kahal outweigh the personal need. So Aaron tries to fulfill his duties as the High Priest, as Moses instructed. Aaron is completely silent, suppressing everything related to this horrific incident. It is only when Moses chastises Aaron’s remaining two sons for improper ritual that Aaron breaks his silence. Aaron yells at Moses, unable to contain the emotion that has been bottled up inside.
Moses was so disciplined, that the needs of the Kahal came before everything else including mourning the loss of the two young men, his nephews, Aaron’s sons. Moses could only see the need to properly perform the priestly service to the Almighty on behalf of the people. But it is not his sons that have been slain. Aaron tried to accede to the demands of his position and do as Moses instructed. He however was unable to maintain the discipline of Moses. But when Aaron broke down and showed his pain, Moses was moved and in an act of humanity consoles his grieving brother.
How often are we overwhelmed when a decision has to be made? Often life confronts us with an “either/or” choice. We do not have the luxury of the “both/and” that we speak of in our theoretical and lofty discussions. So often we judge others by the choices they make, when in fact, they often do not see that there was a choice at all. I recall a profoundly difficult time when this happened to me.
We sat in shock in the hospital waiting area immediately after my mom’s death. My dad started to cry. Then suddenly he sucked it all up, steeling himself to the situation saying, “I have to be strong.” And the tears stopped flowing. I on the other hand, could not “be strong.” I needed to grieve, whatever form that took. I remembered a conversation I had with my mom where she asked me if I would cry for her when she was gone. I did.
The differences in our reactions to her death created a rift between my father and me. I needed to mourn in my own way and I could not do it with someone who was trying to impose such control. How different might our experiences have been if I could have understood the discipline my father was trying to exert upon himself. We might have found strength in each other and maybe even the space to share this profoundly sad moment in much more supportive ways. If instead of harsh judgment, I could have found compassion. If instead of toughening himself for some idealized vision of what it meant to be the head of the household, he could have shared his grief with me. It took me a long time to begin to understand. If only I knew then what I know now.
As we re-imagine the synagogue’s place in American Jewish life new ideas and old ideas meld together to create interesting opportunities. The synagogue remains an important hub of Jewish community. However, relationships have moved to the forefront in our understanding as a way of creating communities that reach out to those on the outside and nurture those already within its arms. The implications of a relationship model affect all aspects of synagogue life including the size of the synagogue.
Traditional wisdom indicates that smaller tends to be better. A lesser number makes it easier for people, including the rabbi to know one another and hopefully foster deeper relationships within the group. Smaller is therefore also consistent with our increased emphasis on individuality. Today it is preferable to find a smaller group that shares our beliefs, rather than subsuming our own ideas to the larger and more expansive congregation of times past. When money flowed more freely and joining the synagogue was part of the natural order of things, new congregations were formed, new buildings were built, congregations grew and life was good.
In many ways, life remains good, but the traditional synagogue model is now being challenged. The drive towards individuality is stronger than ever but the need for community continues. People however, are not flocking to join in the numbers they once did. This challenge is in fact an opportunity for a new synagogue model to emerge where the ideas of small and large can join synergistically; We can create a large synagogue, which itself is an amalgam of smaller congregations or communities. Many successful synagogues already practice this concept. In each traditional area of synagogue life, multiple opportunities or access points exist both within and outside the “synagogue walls.” But the synagogue walls have been expanded to hold many ideas and defray the expenses associated with running an operation.
Traditional services are held parallel to alternative services. Opportunities to congregate and to learn can be expanded. Teachers can focus on the things they know well while the larger number of teacher increases the scope of offerings. There is also the added benefit of programs, including the teaching, being more easily accessible to a broader community. People in this environment are exposed to things they might not have previously considered. Schools likewise can be combined reaping the benefits of size. The community develops a richness and vibrancy because of the depth and breadth of opportunities to engage Jewishly that historically was limited to only the largest or most well heeled congregations. This is being done with success around the country. So if it is already done, what else is there to do?
The challenge is for existing congregations to see this as an opportunity to remain vibrant rather than as a threat to their existence. Smaller congregations struggle to meet the budget and support the overhead. Maintaining a physical structure becomes a monumental challenge in its own right, often leaving little time for much else. The congregational leaders become so busy with the operations of the place they have little time left to build the sacred relationships within its walls. Joining together creates efficiencies of size in addition to diversity of programming available to a larger community. A larger physical structure yields space for multiple groups to share. But there are also the opportunities that arise when the smaller groups join together.
The large synagogue creates a critical mass, a Klal Yisrael. Such unity within a community becomes a cohesive power, while the individual voice and intimate relationships are preserved and honored. There will be times when everyone will want to gather together. Then the temporary walls that might separate the smaller sanctuary spaces can be opened up, literally and figuratively speaking, creating a larger space in which everyone can join.
There are distinct and real challenges to putting such a synagogue model in place, but the opportunity to create communities of meaning that thrive is too great to overlook, and the existing pressure many congregations feel cannot be ignored. Besides, in many places it seems to work.
Tonight we start the holiday of Purim where we read Megillat Esther, the Book of Esther. Purim is a Jewish story. And like so many Jewish Stories, it has multiple levels of meaning.
Purim is a lovely children’s story- good triumphs over evil, a savior rescues us from the clutches of despair. Righteous deeds are rewarded and the people rejoice and live happily ever after.
Purim is also a great adult story, the story of sex, power and palace intrigue. As gripping as any modern drama on cable; forces vie for control, often ruthless in tactics. The heroine uses all her skills and wiles to rescue her people. Shonda Rhimes has at least a full season of Scandal right here in our Megillah!
Purim is also a story with a deeper and darker side, which I believe is the reason why the Book of Esther is included in the Bible; it is a cautionary tale. Purim admonishes us about the use and abuse of power.
How power can work and how it can corrupt.
What happens when power is not challenged and what happens when it seduces. What might happen when we move from being drunk with complacency, to being drunk with power. Megillat Esther portrays when the powerless are subjected to the whims of the powerful- those who are consumed with only their own power driven by the sense of self importance that comes from it.
Haman plans to destroy the Jews because Mordechai does not bow before him. Mordechai and Esther work together, conspiring if you will, to overthrow Haman’s power and gain power for themselves. To achieve these ends they use nothing less than seduction and lies to lure Haman into a trap and inflame the wrath of King Achasverus. The book of Esther demands us to question, “to what lengths are we willing to go to acheive power?”
But then Megillat Esther continues to push us and asks,“What do we do with power once it has been acheived?”
In a kind of “Perverse Dayenu” we learn that it is not enough that the Jews triumph- Esther is the Queen and Mordechai becomes the King’s Vizier. Nor is it enough that in an ironic twist of fate that Haman is executed on the very gallows he built to hang Mordechai. The Jews then demand the execution of all of Haman’s sons and then 50 and then yet another 750 people in Sushan. But it is still not over; for then there is a wholesale slaughter of 75,000 Persians in retribution. This is a place where the phrase “Absolute Power corrupts Absolutely” could surely have been coined. (Lord Acton 1887)
We go from powerless, to powerful; from innocent to corrupt; from holding the moral high ground to losing all moral authority giving way to the basest of human emotion.
So how this story resonate for us today?
We are taught that with power comes responsibility. That responsibility includes protecting those who are less fortunate and powerless, protecting our system of free expression, and protecting our ability to remain a full and vibrant part of this nation we call home. We have come a long way to achieve our comfortable public place in American society. But like our Purim story it was not always so.
Esther concealed her identity from the king until Mordechai gave her the strength to step forward. But what if she did not have the strength? Who would have spoken for the Jews of Persia? Mordechai says that if it was not Esther, someone else would step forward, but in the story we know only two, Queen Esther and her Uncle Mordechai.
Our tradition suggests Mordechai placed his hope in a higher power, but he knew his life was actually in Esther’s hands. And likewise, the future of our next generations is in our hands.
But ominous signs are on the horizon. What if we became unable to advocate for ourselves? It is not as outlandish as it may sound. Many of you can recall the deafening silence of the American Jewish community in the 1930s and 40s. With only a few exceptions such as Rabbi Stephen Wise, our American community retreated into its fear as the Nazi’s systematically executed the Holocaust. Today we can hardly imagine such gripping fear. But this fear is alive as is the hatred. It lives on our college campuses around the country and the implications are foreboding.
We have just finished the national Israel Apartheid week. This is a week of consciousness-raising held on campuses around the country protesting that Israel is no more than an apartheid state dedicated to the oppression of the Palestinians. The attempt to De-legitimize the State of Israel also finds a voice in the growing organized economic boycott of Israel known as Boycott Divest Sanction or BDS. This group was responsible for the commotion surrounding the Soda Stream company’s factory in the West Bank. Students for Justice in Palestine (the SJP) is vehemently anti-Israel and actively protests against the State and its legitimacy on campuses across the country. Not to be outdone, the academic community has, in real terms, taken up the Anti-Israel cause of the Palestinians by supporting the boycott of Israeli scholars through the American Studies Association, the ASA.
The groups on campus have used thuggish tactics to bully and intimidate our college students. And as their teachers align with these politics, the classroom becomes a very uncomfortable, threatening place, instead of a place that is supposed to nurture. The effect on our youth is profound.
Many kids become turtles. They withdraw into their shells and hope that it will all blow over. Many of our kids find themselves fearful. Unable to express an alternative point of view, students on campus are ostracized. They are alienated from their Judaism and any relationship they may have to Israel. These young people are scared to think for themselves or express their opinions. And if they are courageous enough to try, they are subjected to public ridicule and humiliation. If we do not work to support our youth, then we risk raising a whole generation of Jews, our future, unable to withstand the onslaught of hate and bigotry. We will have completely ceded our power to those who would oppress us.
So we must heed the lessons of Megillat Esther and embrace our power with respect. We need to reach out to our youth by giving them a solid understanding of their Jewish identity and Jewish values before they leave for school and begin to explore the world. But we must also support them in these college years of discovery by continuing to be present. We can do this by supporting vibrant Hillels on campus, and as Congregations by remaining in contact with them while they are away and by making them feel warmly welcomed back into our temples when they return. Finally, but so importantly, we must place a Reform Rabbi on every college campus with a significant Jewish population to nurture and care for our children.
The future is theirs, but the power to make that future bright lies with us and what we do now.
Experience forever changes who we are, what we are, particularly when it is an encounter with another. Each of us can think of a person who has had a profound impact on our lives, and usually impact is based on one select memory we have of our experiences with them. The experiences of this week’s Torah Portion, Ki Tisa illustrates the indelible impact of the encounter with God.
We struggle with God and the Divine presence. God chastises us for abandoning God by demanding and worshipping the Golden Calf. But doesn’t God deserve it? As we retell the story every Pesach, God “remembered” us and “with a strong hand and outstretched arm” redeemed us out from the land of Egypt. But just one question, “Where was God for past 400 years, while we suffered in slavery?” From our historical perspective it is a great story from which we make all kinds of meaning. But if you were the “average Yehuda,” living in Egypt before the redemption, you suffered as a slave, plain and simple.
So possibly, we remained a bit skeptical of God and this freedom stuff and we needed constant reassurances that it really was not merely smoke and mirrors, or in this case pillars of smoke and fire. And when Moses, our leader left us and did not return when he promised, we panicked. We reverted to the familiar stuff that comforted for generations. We went for the Golden Calf! Forgive us our weakness, but recent miracles not withstanding, we were not getting the “warm and fuzzies” standing in the desert at the foot of a mountain with both our God and our Moses nowhere to be found. We were scared and felt abandoned.
And of course, God sees this and is deeply offended by our fickle actions; for the Divine Presence is actively sharing Torah with Moses so that Moses can bring it back to the people. They are engaged in a deep communion. The people however don’t know that and react badly. God does know that, and arguably He reacts badly too.
God wants to wipe out the ingrates and start anew. He tells Moses that He will make a whole new people from Moses and these will be the new loyal and chosen people. It is Moses who stops God and persuades the Almighty that the existing people are indeed those with whom He is in Covenant, a sacred bond that cannot be irrevocably broken because of the bad actions in a moment. God is persuaded by Moses’ argument, but God’s relationship to the people is changed. God suggests that He will dispatch an Angel to lead them forward from Sinai. God is no longer interested in personally leading these people. Moses must use his powers of persuasion yet again to get God to amend this attitude.
As Moses helps God in God’s time of need, so too God helps Moses. For when Moses sees for himself the betrayal of the people and the great sin of the Golden Calf, Moses, to use common parlance, “loses it.” He smashes the two sacred tables given to him by God, and heads back up the mountain to suggest that God’s original suggestion was not so bad after all. Let’s start over! This time it is God who must talk Moses off the ledge. But Moses is also forever changed by this encounter. Torah speaks of Moses descending with light radiating from his face, so much so that Moses wears a veil whenever he appears before the people. The only time we are told Moses removes his veil is when he talks to God. This Midrash confirms the relationship is irrevocable altered. Moses still loves the people and remains their committed leader throughout the wandering in the desert. But the relationship is now different from what it was before.
The relationship between God and Moses is one from which we can learn and draw great meaning.
God and Moses play off each other. Both God and Moses need a partner, a sounding board to help them through. Each keeps the other in check so that one does not to fly off the handle acting rashly or precipitously in the moment in a way that would irrevocably damage another. How important is this lesson for us. To ask for help in getting perspective, not letting ego or hurt or pain cause an outburst or reaction. To consider and cogitate, dispassionately considering what really is the best course of action given the circumstances we confront.
Who gives you this kind of non-judgmental, unconditional support that you need? Do you have the security of a relationship where you can expose your true self and your true feelings without fear of harsh judgment or repercussions? Is there someone, or might you find that in your relationship with God. It can be your love, your friend, your rabbi or possibly a colleague such as my rabbi. How much better off would we be if were to think before we were to act, to measure what we do by the standard of what is best for all those involved, rather than to let ego dictate a reaction that gives us satisfaction in the moment but leaves a path of hurt or destruction in its wake?
Cain yehi ratzon May this be God’s will.
Shabbat Shalom
This Friday night we celebrate a very special Shabbat. Although each Shabbat is special, certain Shabbats are singled out for particular meaning in the Jewish calendar. There is Shabbat Shuvah, the Shabbat between Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, Shabbat HaGadol, the Shabbat leading to Passover, Shabbat Shirah, the Shabbat where we sing of crossing the Reed Sea, to name but three of them. Friday, January 31st, we celebrate Shabbat Super Bowl.
Super Bowl Sunday is Feb 2nd 2014. Does God actually play a role in the Super bowl?
There is much debate in America as to whether God plays a role in the Super bowl. According to a new survey from the Public Religion Research Institute, “half of American Sports fans say they believe God or a supernatural force is at play in the games they watch.” This includes 26% of Americans who pray directly to God to help their team, 25% of Americans who believe their team is cursed and approximately 19% of Americans who believe God is involved in who wins the game. This raises some very interesting questions: What is the nature of the God you believe in?
How do we understand God? What role does God play in our lives?
If a disaster looms, do we thank God that we were spared from the hurricane (even though the guys that were nailed were not quite so lucky)? If we get sick, do we pray for God to make us well?
I believe the adage “there are no atheists in foxholes.” When your life is at stake, you grab on to anything that might be a lifeline. And foxholes are metaphoric as well as literal. Each of us will face trials and tribulations in our lives. It is then that we need something to hold onto, an anchor, a rock a something that says we will survive this, because regardless of whether we want it or not, misfortune will surely strike. We do not control the event, but we can control how we get through it and how we carry on after it is over.
So where and how do you find God?
As I sought to answer this question, I found some incredible, astounding and sobering statistics: The Department for Veteran’s Affairs reports than an estimated 48,000 veterans are homeless or at risk for becoming homeless. As of the end of last year, the number of non-fatal casualties from Afghanistan and Iraq surpassed the grim milestone of one million. Over 270,000 brain injuries have been diagnosed including traumatic brain injuries and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. These are forbidding statistics. But there is an important point that is tragically lost in these statistics.
These are human beings who are suffering. They are not nameless things, but rather, they are people, people who feel sadness, pain and anguish. These are the people our prophets seek to protect when they call out to us. For far too long we have not felt a personal connection to these individual people. We have let the impersonal Government take care of the nameless masses. But it is for us, however, to look at them as our brothers and sisters, members of our American family. These are the distinct brave men and women like veteran ranger Sergeant First Class Cory Remsburg who appeared at the State of the Union Address earlier this week. Sergeant First Class Cory Remsburg served his country heroically with a valor and devotion that goes beyond the comprehension of most of us. And Cory Remsberg will spend the rest of his life dependent upon the love and support of all of us as he struggles to recover from devastating injuries.
We are taught, “Kol Yisrael arevim zeh bazeh.” We are all responsible for each other. This is the charge from our God to each and every one of us, that it is our sacred obligation to protect the vulnerable. We are commanded to feed the hungry, clothe the naked, shelter the homeless, and safeguard the widow and the orphan. It is here that we can find our God. For when we reach out to another, God is in that sacred space.
We learn about God’s sacred space in this week’s Torah portion Terumah. Here are the intricate details of building God’s house in the Midbar. The Mishkan is a moveable structure that the Israelites carry with them on their travels through the Wilderness. And if we take this passage as metaphor, essentially we learn in this parshah that God is with us wherever we may go. God Himself teaches us one of the core messages of Torah. As we are taught to build the Ark of the Covenant, two Cherubim are placed on top of the Ark with facing each other with arms outstretched. And God then says, “Here I will meet with you.” (Ex 25:22). That, in other words, God is found in the place we come into relationship with each other.
So let me return to the original question, “Does God influence the Super Bowl?” “God Knows,” but I do not. I am sure that there is a facet of God that enjoys a good contest, revels in positive human competition, and even enjoys a good burger. Should we invite Him to the Tailgating party? Would that unduly influence the Almighty or perhaps might He just enjoy the sweet savor of something hot off the grill?
But the real question remains: “How can you find God’s presence in your daily life?” And the answer to that question might be that maybe God does indeed have the capacity to influence everything in our lives if only we reached out to others and opened ourselves up to the possibility.
Shabbat Shalom
On the eve of Hanukkah thoughts turn to the meaning we glean from the ritual and what we remember, particularly the cause of freedom and what is necessary to achieve it. As we recall the Maccabees, I think of the words of acclaimed anthropologist Margaret Meade who once said, “Never Doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world; indeed it’s the only thing that ever has.”
Many of us remember to that momentous time on December 6, 1987 when a quarter of a million people came together on the National Mall to protest during Premier Mikhael Gorbachev’s visit to Washington demanding that he “let my people go,” and grant the right of Soviet Jews to emigrate to Israel. But before 250,000 people could gather and speak with one voice, people needed to galvanize them. In fact it was on May 1, 1964, outside the Russian Legation to the United Nations in Manhattan, that the first mass public rally to support Soviet Jewry was held. This was the original committed core that started the process, and as they say, the rest is history. Those Soviet Jews that wanted to were eventually granted the right to make aliyah and go to live as Jews in the Land of Israel.
We celebrate those brave souls who risked their personal safety to stand for the ideal of freedom that is embodied in Judaism. We rightfully pay tribute to those who stood up and spoke to power there knowing free speech did not exist in that place, that such speech came at a great price. Those of us here in the United States were encouraged and energized by their voices and we joined ours to theirs. The cry for freedom grew louder and louder until it could no longer be ignored. The doors opened and the great exodus of the twentieth century began; the Jews of the Soviet Union came home.
We saw the power of the word defeat the mighty. We can and should celebrate this modern miracle. But the past is only prologue. For not all the Jews left. What of those that remained behind? They could have been forgotten as our attention focused on the new Olim and we reveled in our accomplishment. But that small committed group continues to make its voice heard and the Jews of the Former Soviet Union have also entered into a new era.
The Jews of the FSU are actively reconnecting with their Judaism that others had tried to take away two generations ago. With the help of outside groups such as the JDC there is a Jewish revival happening. It is not the whispers of Jews practicing their faith behind closed doors, but Jews being and doing Jewish in the open. To visit major urban centers in the FSU, Synagogues that had been shuttered or once repurposed as things like warehouses are now open for business as places of worship. We saw with amazement not only synagogues but also day schools and Jewish Community Centers. And even more remarkable, not only Chabad is there, but so are other streams of Judaism. An organic Judaism is taking hold as Jews rediscover and reconnect to their past, themselves, and their future.
The work is far from over. Rabbi Tarfon tells us in Pirkei Avot that “You are not duty bound to finish the work, but neither can you desist from it.” Judaism’s rise in the FSU, from near extinction to flourishing, is nascent. It remains our sacred obligation to use our power and influence to nurture Jews around the world seeking to connect with our sacred wisdom. We are there to open the doors and welcome our brothers and sisters to join Klal Yisrael. Our true tribute to those who have done so much for the cause of freedom is to continue the work that they started and help the next generation of Jews.
Thanksgiving and Chanukah coincide this year. You may have already heard that. You may also have heard that according to the people who calculate such things, this event will happen again in 70,000 years, give or take. So for us it is safe to say Thanksgivukah is a once in a lifetime event. It is the first time the two holidays occur at the same time and, as much as I love my country, I am not sure if it will be around 700 centuries years from now for the next one. Thanksgivukah is a big deal if only because it likely will happen only this one time. Let us celebrate!
So break out the sweet potato latkes and the turkey menorahs with candles for tail feathers. I am sure that there are all kinds of tie-ins, dreidels and chocolate gelt meeting funny looking black hats (maybe no change there) along side pumpkin pie and turkey with dressing. And on the more serious side, there are the opportunities to learn and make meaningful connection; how do we as moderns understand the two holidays? How do we tell the intertwined story? How do we relate to the people both Native American and Pilgrim and their respective narratives from a Jewish point of view? What a special celebration this will be.
The thing of it is, each day of our lives is truly just like Thanksgivukah; a unique moment that is ours for as long as it lasts, and once gone, only a memory never to be relived but possibly recaptured as myth and retold because it was special. What if we greeted each day with such a profound sense of awe and anticipation? How much better might life be if we lived each day to its fullest?