The Blueprint for Sustaining the Light-Parshat Behaalotecha

Why do we keep looking back at a past that wasn’t even that good?

That’s the question hiding inside Parshat Behaalotecha. The Israelites have everything: the Mishkan, the cloud, the fire, the infrastructure of a people on the move toward something sacred. And within chapters, they’re weeping for Egypt’s cucumbers.

It would be easy to judge them. It is harder to recognize ourselves.

Here is what the Torah is actually diagnosing: nostalgia is a lie we tell ourselves about the past. The fish they’re mourning were eaten in slavery. The melons, the leeks, all of it was part of a life in which they were not free. Memory has a way of editing out the cost of what we’ve left behind, leaving only the flavor of what felt familiar.

But there’s something even sharper underneath the complaint. The manna was miraculous, and it had become ordinary. Not bad. Just expected. This is what psychologists call hedonic adaptation: what we once received as a gift quietly becomes baseline, and then disappointment begins right at the level of yesterday’s abundance. Having more doesn’t produce gratitude. It resets the threshold for what counts as “enough.”

The parsha opens with the image of the menorah: b’haalotecha et ha-nerot, when you lift up the lights. The kohen returned every single morning to tend the lamps, trimming wicks, clearing ash, and replenishing oil. Sacred light didn’t sustain itself. It required showing up, again and again, for the unglamorous work of maintenance.

That’s the image the Torah gives us for the spiritual life. Not the dramatic moment of ignition. The daily return.

The question Behaalotecha poses is not: Why am I struggling? It is: What am I actually hungry for, and have I confused familiarity with nourishment?

What flame in your life is asking you to come back to it?

 

 

 

You Knew What You Were Getting Into with Mamdani

Years ago, a friend came to me frustrated that his child’s Quaker school wasn’t fully observing Jewish holidays. He wanted to vent — and then wanted to know what we could do about it.

My answer was simple: you knew what you were getting into. The Quaker school system serves many communities, cultures, and traditions. Its mission isn’t to support any one of them; it’s to instill the values it considers foundational. That’s not a failure. That’s what you signed up for.

We are having a Quaker School moment with New York’s new mayor, Zohran Mamdani.

A portion of the Jewish community is outraged that Mamdani has declined to participate in the Israel Day Parade. But Mamdani was never unclear about where he stood. He is a self-described democratic socialist, and his views on Israel were not hidden — they were part of his appeal. To have seen him marching as a parade marshal would have looked exactly like what it would have been: a cheap attempt to curry favor.

This is who New Yorkers elected.

Elections have consequences. Whether or not I agree with Mamdani, the ballot box was where I could register my view. That moment has passed. Expressing outrage now is a day late and a dollar short. New York got what it voted for.

If the outcome feels wrong, the answer isn’t to spit into the wind. It’s to find better candidates — people who reflect the critical values at stake. The machinery of Democratic politics in New York needs a serious post-mortem: how did this happen, what forces converged, and what will it take to do things differently next time?

Don’t complain that the person elected isn’t delivering what you wanted when what he’s delivering is exactly what he promised.

Shabbat Shalom

Bridge over Troubled Water is a to prepare for Shabbat Naso.

Naso gives us the Priestly Blessing — the oldest words in continuous Jewish use. Simon & Garfunkel found the same melody three thousand years later.

Our prayer for peace

עוֹשֶׂה שָׁלוֹם בִּמְרוֹמָיו הוּא יַעֲשֶׂה שָׁלוֹם עָלֵינוּ וְעַל כָּל יִשְׂרָאֵל וְעַל כָּל יוֺשְׁבֵי תֵבֶל, וְאִמְרוּ אָמֵן

Oseh shalom bimromav, hu ya’aseh shalom aleinu, v’al kol Yisrael, v’al kol yoshvei tevel v’imru amen.

May the One who makes peace in the high places, bring peace upon us, and upon all Israel, and all humankind, and let us say: Amen.

What Jealousy Knows That Love Forgets- Parsha Naso

I have sat with people whose trust has shattered — in marriages, friendships, and communities — and almost always, the breaking came not from a single dramatic act but from a slow accumulation of doubt. A question that shouldn’t have needed asking. A silence that lasted too long.

Parashat Naso knows this gap intimately. It moves through every layer of broken trust, from the outside in: communal rupture, a marriage poisoned not by confirmed betrayal but by suspicion, and finally the Nazir — the one who has seen enough human brokenness to withdraw from relationships altogether.

Each rupture runs deeper than the last. Yet the Torah’s response to each one is the same: none of these restorations happen in private. You cannot repair what was broken between two people with only those two. We need a container larger than the injury — something that can hold what we cannot carry alone.

But the parsha demands something even harder. The Sotah drinks the water without knowing what will happen. That act, entering genuine uncertainty, is itself an act of trust. The Torah teaches something almost paradoxical: you cannot wait until you trust again before taking the risk of trusting.

And where does that courage come from? The parsha answers with Birkat Kohanim, the Priestly Blessing. The blessing is not something we generate ourselves — it comes from outside us, bestowed by the kohanim and ultimately from God. I am placing my name upon you. I am lifting my face toward you. Shalom is not merely peace, but wholeness, the integrity of parts restored to each other. It is given to us precisely so that what comes next becomes possible.

Because the parsha keeps going. The heads of the tribes each bring their offerings — twelve princes, twelve consecutive days, the same gift each time, each one named and fully witnessed. No shortcuts. Consistent presence, showing up the same way again and again, until the wholeness you are building becomes real enough to hold.

The blessing does not replace the work. It makes the work bearable. Work that each of us is called to do.

Shabbat Shalom

BaMidbar, or the Wilderness, is where Torah is given.  We were unmoored until our encounter with the Divine. The questions Bob Dylan asks in Blowin’ in the Wind are the questions we all must ask as we traverse the wilderness.

We pray for peace.

עוֹשֶׂה שָׁלוֹם בִּמְרוֹמָיו הוּא יַעֲשֶׂה שָׁלוֹם עָלֵינוּ וְעַל כָּל יִשְׂרָאֵל וְעַל כָּל יוֺשְׁבֵי תֵבֶל, וְאִמְרוּ אָמֵן

Oseh shalom bimromav, hu ya’aseh shalom aleinu, v’al kol Yisrael, v’al kol yoshvei tevel v’imru amen.

May the One who makes peace in the high places, bring peace upon us, and upon all Israel, and all humankind, and let us say: Amen.

Shabbat Shalom

Finding Humanity in the Wilderness-Bamidbar

We are living in a wilderness. The landmarks we relied on — shared institutions, common ground, the assumption that the person across from us inhabits the same basic reality — have grown unfamiliar. We are between what was and whatever comes next. Disoriented. And tempted, as people always are in disorienting times, to cluster into tribes, to find safety in the familiar, and to stop seeing the people just outside our camp.

Into that disorientation, the Torah this week offers a name for where we are. Bamidbar — In the Wilderness. And the first thing it does, before laws, before strategy, before the long march begins, is this: God tells Moses to count the people.

Not manu otam — number them. S’u et rosh — lift the head. Every person, by name, by clan, by family. Not a tally. A seeing.

This is the question Bamidbar puts to us: What does it mean to count someone?

We know one answer. We live with it every day. We count people to manage them — to allocate resources, to measure outcomes, to track attendance. In that kind of counting, what matters is the number, not the person behind it. The individual disappears into the aggregate. A congregation becomes “membership numbers.” A person in grief becomes a “case.”

The Torah offers a different answer.

In the wilderness, where the Israelites have no city, no home, no fixed identity beyond the memory of slavery, God insists on counting each one by name. Before anything else can happen — before the camp is organized, before the march continues — every person has to be seen as a person.

The word midbar shares a root with davar — word, speech, the act of speaking. The wilderness is the place of speech. Not the speech of a crowded life, where we talk past each other in corridors and Shabbat kiddushes. The speech of the stripped-down encounter — where there is nothing left but the person in front of you and what is actually true. That is where the Torah is given. Not in a palace. In the midbar, where the distractions fall away, and the question becomes unavoidable: who is here, and do I actually see them?

The Levites are counted separately in this parsha. Every other tribe is counted for military service — men twenty years and older, those who can bear arms. The Levites are not. They are assigned to the Mishkan, the Tabernacle, the portable dwelling of the divine in the midst of the people. Their job is not to fight. Their job is to tend the place of meeting — to keep open the space where a genuine encounter is possible. The entire camp is arranged around that center. The whole organization of the Israelite community in the wilderness is structured around proximity to the place of real meeting.

This is not incidental to Judaism. It is the architecture of it.

Bamidbar does not let us retreat into our tribes. Before the march begins, before positions are taken, God says, “Lift the head.” Not of your group. Of every person. The census is not an invitation to count the people who look like you.

Here is the call: Find one person this week you have been counting but not truly seeing. Not a category. Not a face you pass in a corridor. A person, by name, by what they are actually carrying right now. Ask a real question and stay for the answer.

That is what it means to be in the wilderness together. That is this week’s work.

Shabbat Shalom

As we enter Shabbat, this week’s Torah portion reminds us that we are in it together.

Praying for peace and wholeness, Shabbat Shalom

עוֹשֶׂה שָׁלוֹם בִּמְרוֹמָיו הוּא יַעֲשֶׂה שָׁלוֹם עָלֵינוּ וְעַל כָּל יִשְׂרָאֵל וְעַל כָּל יוֺשְׁבֵי תֵבֶל

 וְאִמְרוּ אָמֵן

Oseh shalom bimromav, hu ya’aseh shalom aleinu, v’al kol Yisrael, v’al kol yoshvei tevel v’imru amen. 

May the One who makes peace in the high places, bring peace upon us, and upon all Israel, and all humankind, and let us say: Amen.

Commanded to Let Go: What Shemitah Teaches About Sinai, Suffering and Starting Over

BEHAR – BECHUKOTAI  •  5786

Parashat Behar opens with a striking geographical framing: “Vayedaber Adonai el Moshe b’Har Sinai” — God spoke to Moses at Mount Sinai. The Midrash famously asks why specify Sinai here? Because Shemitah — the sabbatical year — is Sinai’s teaching made tangible. Revelation wasn’t a one-time delivery of words. It was a rhythm embedded into the land itself.

Every seven years, the fields lie fallow. Debts are released. Slaves go free. What has accumulated — wealth, obligation, bondage — is released back toward equality. Then, after seven cycles of seven, comes Yovel: the Jubilee. Land returns. The slate is wiped clean. Not as punishment, but as design. Not as weakness, but as wisdom.

This is not agricultural policy. It is a theology of impermanence.

Some of us know this not as theory but as lived reality. A robbery, a fire, a hurricane, a financial collapse that arrived without fault. An impossible debt that grew heavier no matter how faithfully it was carried. For those who have used bankruptcy not to escape responsibility but to find the only available path forward — Torah sees you. Shemitah exists precisely because the Midrash understood that sometimes circumstances overwhelm even the most honorable person and that a society without a release valve ultimately crushes both the debtor and the community.

Bechukotai asks: what happens when we refuse? The curses are not divine wrath — they are a portrait of a world that never lets go. A land driven to exhaustion. A community that abandons its most vulnerable rather than absorbing their loss together. This is what we build when we mistake accumulation for security and holding on for strength.

Obedience, then, isn’t submission to arbitrary decree. It is the discipline of release, trusting that we and others can survive the pause and that starting again is not shameful.

We must look around to see who in our community is carrying an unbearable weight right now. The Torah didn’t leave the reset to individual conscience; it built it into communal law because community is precisely where it must happen. This Shabbat, consider what it means to be someone else’s Shemitah. Be the one who says: your debt to me is released. Begin again. We will begin again together.

 

 

Shabbat Shalom

“This week’s parsha contains the Torah’s most radical demand — not sacrifice, not ritual, but love. Rabbi Creditor put it to music and the world has been singing it ever since.”  Love your neighbor as yourself, Lev. 19:18 — v’ahavta l’reiacha kamocha. The centerpiece of the Holiness Code is not ritual but relationship.

Listen to this beautiful music shared by Chazan Daniel Mutlu​ and Rabbi Angela Buchdahl​ of Central Synagogue​.

Shabbat Shalom

What Does It Mean to Celebrate?

Reflections on Yom Ha’atzmaut in a Fractured Time

Yom Ha’atzmaut is here.

And I am not sure what to do with it this year.

I suspect I am not alone.

Some of us will celebrate with a brightness that feels slightly forced. Others will scroll past the blue-and-white posts on our feeds, unable to summon joy. Some will feel that celebrating at all is a kind of moral surrender — a looking away from things that cannot be ignored.

If any of this describes you, I want to be clear: your discomfort is not disloyalty. It shows how seriously you take what Israel was meant to be.

And if you find yourself in a different place from other Jews you love, people struggling just as honestly from the other direction, that too is part of this moment. There may not be a single right way to stand before this day, but there is a Jewish way to wrestle with it.

The Text We Keep Forgetting

I want to go back to May 14, 1948.

Not to the military maps or the political negotiations. To the document. To the words the founders actually chose when they had the chance to speak.

“The State of Israel will be based on freedom, justice and peace as envisaged by the prophets of Israel” — and commits to “complete equality of social and political rights to all its inhabitants irrespective of religion, race or sex.”

The founders did not reach for military might. Not for ethnic supremacy. Not even for simple survival. In their most solemn moment, they reached for the prophets. They staked this new state’s legitimacy on a moral vision — ancient, demanding, and unmistakably Jewish.

That is what Yom Ha’atzmaut is actually celebrating.

Not merely a military victory. Not a geopolitical fact. The moment a people declared they would return to their land and do so justly.

The Tradition They Invoked

They knew exactly which prophets they were citing.

Isaiah, who thundered that sacrifice without justice is an abomination. Amos, who declared that God despises our festivals when the poor are crushed at the gates. Micah, who distilled the entire Torah into three obligations: do justice, love kindness, walk humbly.

These were not gentle voices. They were Israel’s most demanding lovers, celebrating the covenant and indicting its betrayal in the same breath, sometimes even in the same verse. They never abandoned Israel when it failed. They held it, fiercely, to its highest self.

That is the tradition Yom Ha’atzmaut places us in.

Not cheerleading. Not abandonment. Something harder and more honorable than either: prophetic loyalty.

The prophets never argued that Israel’s struggles forfeited its right to exist. Nor did they suggest that Israel’s existence placed it beyond accountability. They said something more demanding than either: precisely because this people is called to something higher, the gap between that calling and the present reality must be named, mourned, and closed.

The Gap We Cannot Pretend Away

The Declaration is not a historical artifact. It is a living covenant — and covenants make demands.

So let me name what the Declaration’s own language requires us to ask.

There are wars that were both existential and necessary. Wars whose courage deserves to be honored without hesitation or qualification. And there are military and political choices whose necessity is genuinely disputed — whose costs have fallen heavily on people who did not choose them.

There is an occupation now entering its sixth decade. The Declaration promised equality and justice. For millions of people who have known nothing else, the daily reality of life without sovereignty or legal recourse is a standing question addressed directly to the founders’ vision.

There is violence carried out by those who claim the land in the name of Jewish values — desecrating both the land and those values in the same act.

And there is a sustained assault on judicial independence — the very institution standing between the state’s founding promises and their erosion. When accountability is dismantled, the gap between aspiration and reality stops being painful and becomes permanent.

I am not making a partisan argument. I am holding the present up to the Declaration’s own words.

To name these things is not to delegitimize Israel. It is to hold Israel to its own founding covenant.

That is, in fact, the most Jewish act we can take.

What the Rabbis Already Knew

Jewish tradition has already given us a framework for exactly this kind of complexity.

On the last days of Passover, we recite only half Hallel — the psalms of praise — rather than the full Hallel.

The reason is arresting.

When the angels wanted to sing as the Egyptians drowned in the sea, God stopped them. “My creatures are drowning, and you want to sing songs?” According to tradition, full joy is morally unavailable when others are suffering, even when that suffering follows from our own necessary deliverance.

Yom Ha’atzmaut does not call for half Hallel. The miracle of Jewish sovereignty — a people returning from the literal ashes of history to reestablish a state in their ancestral homeland — is real, extraordinary, and worthy of full-throated celebration.

But perhaps not a Hallel entirely untroubled, either.

Not because the miracle is diminished. Because the vision the founders declared is not yet fully realized, and people are suffering in the shadow of that gap.

This is not despair. This is Jewish moral honesty.

The refusal to let celebration become anesthesia.

The Most Counter-Intuitive Thing I Want to Say

To celebrate Yom Ha’atzmaut is not to endorse the present.

It is to hold the present accountable to the founding promise.

When we gather, sing, and mark this day, we are not saying: everything is fine. We are saying: this vision is worth everything, but it is not yet complete. We are not done, and we refuse to walk away.

To stop celebrating is to abandon the field, to concede that the gap between aspiration and reality is simply how things are.

To celebrate without reckoning is to betray the vision and to turn a covenant into a tribal rally.

The prophetic answer, the Jewish answer, is to do both, fully, in the same breath.

Sing because the miracle is real.

Grieve because the distance from the vision is real.

Reject the false choice between love and conscience, because genuine love has never required us to close our eyes.

The prophets did not love Israel less for naming its failures. They loved it more, precisely because they refused to let it become less than it was called to be.

An Invitation

This Yom Ha’atzmaut, let your celebration be the most serious thing you do.

Sing — because seventy-seven years ago, a people who had just walked through fire stood up and declared they would live, build, and do so with justice. That deserves every note.

Grieve — because the distance between that declaration and today’s reality is not minor, and pretending otherwise dishonors the founders and those living in the shadow of that gap.

And then sit with this question, not as rhetoric but as a real question I am asking you directly:

What does my love for this state truly require of me?

Not what it permits. Not what it excuses.

What does it require?

That question — taken seriously and wrestled with honestly — may be the most Zionist act of all.

חַג עַצמָאוּת שָּמֵאח

A meaningful and searching Independence Day.